Happy Birthday To Me

Well, in fact that only some of good friends who said “Happy Birthday” to me earlier, I would like to say Happy Birthday to myself, wish a very bright future ahead. Perhaps my wish is: I wish I will go to USA and work at Google. 😛

Lagi masa-masa Google-maniacs nih gw. Hehehehe 😛

Goodbye 20092010 😀

Prayer For My Mother

Dear God,

I know I am a sinner. Every second I live I never get away from all this sin.

I know I am a liar. Every single word I speak is only lie.

I know I am unfaithful to You. Even though I know that You always grace me with Your joy

These sins is all about me. About how I stuck with my own lust and greed.

But I know, every time I remember about You, I always remember about how my mother taught me the good and reminded me the bad.

I only wish for her to be forgiven for all of her sin she made in her life, keep her soul untouched by the flame of Jahannam, and let her rest beside You in your Firdaus.

Rabbighfirli wali wali dayya warhamhuma kamaa rabbayaani shoghiiro


My Life Is In a Crossroad

I’m starting to think that recently I’m such a mess. I have no power to study, to do something useful for my own life, to think about somebody else, and much more. I worried with my upcoming future, which I’ll be graduated in a year, I’m going for an internship in less than 3 months (which the bad part is I haven’t get any internship company yet), and so much more.

I also feel a little bit lonely and homesick, which in this part, I miss my suck high school year, when I had so much time to take care of myself and less pain in the asses. It doesn’t mean I’m that lazy (okay, I’m a bit lazy), but I just feel that all these (monotonic) activities just started to kill me slowly.

I really want to break the ice inside of me. I want both excellence in my academics and happiness in my daily life. I know without fulfilling both of those goals simultaneously, I won’t make it. I don’t feel myself blend with my routines and environments anymore. I feel that I’m not that dynamic as what I used to. I need to find a way to get back in the shape. But I don’t know how.

Only if you guys would understand this cloudy sky above me. But I guess you wouldn’t. I’m stuck in a crossroad.